Abusive

It was a rainy day today,

I dropped my daughter off at school, than went home and relaxed all day until I had to pick her up around 2pm (school has cut hours and kinda sucks not in a bad way) anyways my BOYFRIEND and father to my 2 youngest (oldest has just me and boyfriend)

Didn’t go to sleep untill about 1pm because he stayed up all night chilling with his Friend.

He woke up around 7:20 - 8 pm

And I didn’t clean the house, I just went ahead and started cooking dinner a little later than I should but I was exhausted and my 1 year old wouldn’t take a nap all day! When my Boyfriend woke up he seamed irritated, had an attitude, and he always asks me. What did you do.today ? Oh nothing huh?

He tell me that I am not the one that takes care of the kids that he is, I’m the one that puts my kids to sleep, gets them up, feeds them, and bathes them, medicine while sick. My boyfriend says it’s my job to potty train our son but he won’t do it. Than he yells at me about my son playing with my oldest daughter and her toys because he shouldn’t play with baby dolls or a pink tea set. Which I like when my son plays with trucks too but he wants to play with his big sister, and maybe him playing with a baby will help him be more calm with his baby sister.

Well anyways he starts complaining about what I did today, and I just looked at him and did t say anything because he always asks me the same thing and it turns n to an argument, he threw a glass cup at me while I was washing dishes,and cold me a fat Twinkie ass, he also shook his wet hands at me got my face wet with dirty water. Also called me retarded and tell me my brain only ever things (derrrr da derrr)

I told him that if he was gonna continue to be abusive and treat me the way he does I’m done and don’t want to be with him. He told me he’s not and that I could leave and grabbed me and pushed me towards the door. I told him I will leave but I’m taking my daughter who is w months and breastfeeding with me. He told me I could leave and take my oldest but I’m not taking the other kids. I explained that I breast feed my daughter and if I leave without her she will be hungry.

He says to my son he’s gonna take him to his grandmas. And that he can have his sister who just had a baby right before me breast feed my child..

I’m like why would I let your sister feed my child whe. I am right here and take care of my kids everyday??

He says oh now you wanna start taking care of the kids.

I have taken care of the kids by myself pretty much since the middle of my pregnancy with my daughter, even before that. My boyfriend has really been hanging out this entire last year while I do everything for my ids and get no time to myself, he even hung out with his friend and didn’t come back while I was I. The hospital after having a 3rd csection and got mad that I was emotional and sad to be there alone and said he thought I needed time alone (what.?)

He would tell me he was leaving the hospital to go check on our kids and than I hear his mom taking to somebody about how me and my boyfriend didn’t see the kids for 3 days meanwhile my boyfriend said he was leaving to see them. He did call me a couple times when he went to visit the kids but after that he was with his friends.

Anyways he shoved me against the door and wouldn’t let me take my kids, he grabbed me by my neck, and pushed my head against the door.

Eventually he said go ahead take all the kids. So I did

And I took them out to eat at Applebee’s,

And told him I wasn’t gonna come home, he said he wasn’t neither, ( i did end up going home, because my daughter has school in the morning and she already missed an entire week from being sick and I can’t have any issues with the school for her not attending

He apologized to me, and I’m still angry, just to see what he would say I offered him to come eat with his kids at Applebee’s and have his mom bring him since she lives a couple houses away,

Instead of doing that, I leave and am on my way home and I see his mom pass by she didn’t even stop to say anything and kept going (he was with her) his mom took him to get mcdanolds and I messaged him saying why couldn’t he come eat with his children and have his mom drop him off with his family but he could have her take him to get some mcdanolds.

I pull up at the house and than I decided to leave because I was having issues with my phone service and needed to call my phone company, it only worked if I was away from the house

He calls me, I didn’t answer, his mom calls me and I didn’t answer cause I was on the phone, I texted. Oth of them and let them know and I ended up coming back home and Boone was there. I finally talk to his mom and was like what’s up and she says, you have the kids out at 12/11 o clock at night,

They are Cuban, and she always has me come over to her house and we be there untill like 1-2 in the morning chillin and the kids play with the other kids etc, but no, she starts saying what I mentioned above and I said who said I’m out? I was already home. She said oh well I just went by your house you wasn’t home. I’m I just came from taking my kids to eat because my boyfriend told me to get out of his house after I just payed the bills.

(She thinks everything is done as a team and that her son mainly pays everything. My entire bank account reflects bills and toilet paper.

She told me oh well don’t have a nasty attitude with me, I’m already very annoyed, calm talking and just said ok. And hung up because I didn’t wanna deal with her and her sons bullshit at the same time.

So than my boyfriend text me and tells me goodnight.

He bitched and moaned and had his mother call me but he’s out and will be all night.

I can’t stand to be in a relationship with such a childish man. He is always out with his friends. Every single night. Last year it went from fishing, clubs, restaurants etc

Like he goes out to eat with his friends but not me, he went out to eat with his friends, and I said I wanted to take the kids out, after he left we ended up going to the same restaurant and ate by ourselves

He tells me I don’t do anything, that I’m fat, stupid retarted

I need motivation to do best for my kids and me

I am stuck in need of friend

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