Feeling alone

I have no friends and I've been in this state for a couple years. When I first got here I was still on the shy quiet side then got into a toxic ass relationship and pretty much wasted 5 years of my life. I feel like I missed out what I guess normal early 20's people did so I feel like im trying to make up for all that time I couldve been so free and happy instead of miserable and stuck.

Only person I have here is a cousin but shes always working and you know she has her thing going on. 2 days ago I decided to reach out to a girl I had a class with years ago and she said she would hang with me but come today I ask if we're still hanging and she left me on read.

I've even downloaded tinder just to throw myself out there but people barely even make convos with you much less actually try to meet in person.

I guess i just dont know how to make friends as an adult and I'm currently unemployed, I do plan searchng for a job so hopefully that'll open doors for on the friend aspect but for now I literally just drive around, walk around stores, spend my time on tik tok or school work.

I want to walk into the mall here but it gets me anxious walking around by myself when im having a down day but I do need to find a nice top.