Ttc since mx

Just looking to spill my gutts I guess to those that get it. All these studies most fertile after mc 😭 Here I am Cd1 of my second cycle since my first mc in June. Woke with a sore tummy today and just knew af was coming. Said aloud my tummy was really sore today and my partner just HAD to ask if I was maybe pregnant again. I just snapped and said don't say things like that. He finally left for work and I have literally just sobbed 😭😭😭 Why does this journey come so easy for others?! Heres me trying everything, every month, lost my 7 week old daughter last year, now mc, all I see is baby and pregnancy announcements on social media 😞 I just want it to be my turn already as selfish and spoilt as that sounds 😭🌈