Sometimes I want my husband to have sex with another man?

My husband and I are both bisexual. We have a close-knit circle of friends and more often than not, all the guys joke about being gay with each other. (It's just jokes, they're all great friends and it's just how they are)

Is it wrong of me to secretly wish that my husband would actually hook up with one of our friends and let me watch? I wouldn't say I'm like, into being a cuckquean or anything, but on multiple occasions I've definitely wished I could watch gay interactions between my husband and someone else.

He's told me his male crushes and what his ideal body type and personality is for men, but he'd never be comfortable cheating on me in any way. I've brought it up to him before letting him know that's something I fantasize about, but he just laughs and says he wouldn't do that to me and it would be cheating. I completely love and respect him for that and it does make me happy that he's so against cheating, but I feel weird that it's still something I fantasize about. I'd even let him have a boyfriend if that was something that ended up working out- 3 incomes for a household would be amazing and I'd really enjoy watching and knowing about his sexual activity.

I feel gross and weird for thinking this stuff...I know it's not normal. Does anyone else feel like this ever? Or how can I get these thoughts out of my head?