🌈 rainbow baby

Due February 4th 2022🥰👌🏼

20 weeks today feeling so blessed to be able to be pregnant with my rainbow baby girl🌈👣🥰 Ft my 4yr old son 💕 I Have PCOS, with no period for 8 years. I have endometrial polyps and had to have surgery to get them removed in 2020 because my uterus was covered even though I know they will grow back and i also wasn't ovulating. My first born son just turned 12 in August I had him in 2009 and tried for years for my second baby and finally after years of struggling i finally had a period in 2016 and fell pregnant and had a good amount of complications and had a healthy baby boy June 2017. When me and my fiance got together, in 2019 we decided we weren't going to try for a baby but weren't going to try to prevent it from happening either. I had no period due to exclusively breastfeeding my son and in August 2019 we found out we were pregnant. I knew from the start something was wrong but i tried to have hope. My lvls were slowly rising but i was in a lot of pain on one side and bleeding alot they did countless blood draws and ultrasounds my lvls we're rising so slowly but never doubled. And they never found my baby. on September 11th 2019 it was finally ruled a ectopic and had to get the methotrexate injection to end the pregnancy or I would die along with my baby. A loss I'll never get over and the pain will never ease. In January 2020 we started to try for our rainbow i wasn't ovulating i was full of polyps and my PCOS was getting worse. By October 2020 i went in for surgery and got them removed and had a D&C to remove everything ugly from my uterus. After countless tries in March of 2021 i finally ovulated didn't get pregnant but was excited in April i had a period and ovulated beginning of May and on May 25th i got my first bfp 🥰 i am so blessed to say PCOS does not define me it is hard to get pregnant with PCOS but it is not impossible 💕 from 2020-2021 i spent around 1000 dollars in total maybe more on pregnancy tests ovulation tests medication to help ovulate and start my period and countless other things i would cry my eyes out and pray for God to bless us i just want my little family bigger 💕 God blessed us and i cannot be anymore grateful God is good All the time ! Even through the bad 🥰

ladies i know the pains and struggle of the feeling of being worthless and not good enough for my husband. The feeling of why me and when will God bless us and all the other shitty feels and guilts we get. The scared to test because you know it will be negative again And the cries when you still aren't pregnant and everyone else is. Please don't ever give up ever! I am proof to not give up because if i can do it so can you❤️ if no one has told you this today your good enough i believe in you and you CAN do it❤️