My husband and I have been trying to conceive for 5 years now, going through fertility treatments for the past 3.

My period was due yesterday and I told myself I told myself the other day that I'll no longer test until the day after I'm due. Because usually what will happen is I'll take a test in the morning the day I'm due and then a few hours later I start.

So this morning I woke up around 8 to pee and went back to bed. I still hadn't started. So when I got up for the day at 9, I grabbed a cup and a test, with a little glimmer of hope, and headed to the bathroom. Before I sat down I decided to wipe, just to be sure before peeing in the cup. Sure enough, I started.

I have been telling myself for years not to get my hopes up each month, but I let myself do it this time. It hurts even more this month because we can't even afford to do an <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">iui</a> this cycle, let alone <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> (which is what we really need to do). So I just feel like we are at a stand still right now.