I am currently 21 weeks and since day 1 I have literally felt like crap which is COMPLETELY different from my first pregnancy I felt like super woman . I have no energy, physically couldn’t do my job because I was having blackouts early with this baby. so they recommended I take the time off til she arrives..

I am enrolled in school full time that I’m now falling behind end and thinking I should quit school. and still have to be a mommy to my 2 year old daughter, make ends meet for bills and all. I thank God for my fiancé he’s the best supporter and partner I could have ever asked for yet I still feel empty and worthless.

I am blessed in every area of my life…my daughter is healthy and happy, I have a great significant other, I have a roof over my head, bills are paid. But can not for the life of me figure out why i am constantly sad…low levels of energy all the time and just don’t want to be doing life period. Im trying so hard to get up and do everything that use to relax me…I just started writing again, I do DoorDash to cover what I have to pay, make sure my daughter is set…my unborn is doing great despite the update of what she was diagnosed with, she’s doing perfect so im like wtf. I am so confused and constantly have negative thoughts and I don’t know what to do..