Somebody to talk to

Sometimes I feel like I’m in world all by myself I have family but I don’t have that one person I can talk to or count on and I can’t talk to my husband he doesn’t pay any attention to me when I be trying to have a conversation.Idk but I just keep everything inside and most of time it makes me angry and sad but hide it to the outside world I feel like I can’t trust any one everything and everybody seems to be out to get me not physically but I think these things all the time I don’t had some tuff times in my life that leads up to this everybody say I’m crazy I’m stupid I’m this I’m that and then the people my husband deal with I don’t so mostly I’m in the house I just had two kids back to back and it’s taking a ton on me far as adjusting my husband work all the time and only there at night so I’m with the kids 95%of the time sometimes my mom get them sometimes she don’t idk if I’m going through postpartum depression but my oldest son 14 and I’m still trying to get used to having a baby around I have all boys no girls. Everything in my head is running together and my sex life isn’t so good here lately he been getting him finish and that’s it I haven’t came in months it’s so frustrating because he doesn’t want to hear it it’s always me so I keep quite most of the time I talk to myself