I feel so alone, being a single parent of a two year old and one year old is so friggin hard.. I have no friends or family because I ruined all that by going back to my kids dad who beat me up and threatened to kill our kids and my family, so he’s been on a. I contact order and his family doesn’t help because I’m the bad guy, my family don’t help, because drugs and alcohol or more important, I’m just so alone and my kids are driving me up the wall with the fighting each of her all day, screaming for no damn reason, pulling my hair and pushing me against furniture.. I can’t even sit down or they’ll climb all over me… I guess I’m going through something like sensory overload with them.. it’s exhausting.. they don’t sleep at night, we could sit in a dark house and they’ll still run and jump all over, they didn’t sleep til 4am and woke up at 9am.. I’m so exhausted… I can’t even get them into daycare because I calculated our rent and bills and even with subsidy I couldn’t afford it… I’m asking for help because I screamed at my kids and scared them and spanked my son on the but for whacking his little sister on the face with a toy train leaving a big bruise on her.. and pushing her all over all day… I try play with him when I can but she always cries for me or bothers him when he needs his alone time, and he would start hitting me for no reason when I try teach him and I’m just over everything, my toddlers are so bad.. and it’s driving me crazy.. I need help.. a break.. I tried keeping them in seperate rooms too but they masters opening the door and the baby gates.. I’m just losing it.. I can’t do it anymore.. I feel like the worst mom ever…