Frustrated and CONFUSED!!

Ok, so I’ve been w/my S/O for over 7-8 years now.

& every time we’re intimate it’s no problem finishing. But, I’m sorry. My hand gets tired to where sometimes I give out on wanting to finish cause my hand cramps up. I want to use a vibrator .. & he refuses to let me even have one!! Or for instance use lube once in a while.. why is this?? I’m so infuriated. Help is there but, he doesn’t want to accept it.

I finally had my last straw after he dried up down there from constant pulling in and out and it was fine at first. Until he cut my lips down there.. Ugh. Makes me mad and sick.

Personally makes me feel he’s self centered now.

Also I bought a dildo a while back .. we were split for a few weeks and after we kinda sort of were working things out he took it and threw it away.

I’d like to add also.. he doesn’t need to finish he’s always so ok if I’m finished and done he won’t continue if he hasn’t finished he doesn’t care for the need to finish but I let him. If that makes sense