Feeling down.

So I'm almost 11weeks and I haven't had an ultrasound (except at hospital because I swollen up super big and I thought something was wrong) I haven't seen a picture, heard a heart beat, I haven't had any sickness at all I don't feel any different and my first trimester is almost over. Like I don't m feel pregnant and I really want the best from my pregnancy experience. Like does anybody have suggestions? I'm excited but I don't feel anything. Like nothing at all. And this is my first child. I feel like I should be throwing up glowing something. But nothing. I don't look like I'm showing and I honestly don't feel pregnant :/ I constantly keep taking test to make sure. I keep feeling like something is wrong because I'm not feeling anything.