My body fails me

meghan

So after Ttc 1.5 years and going to the Dr for 3 months of progesterone blood tests on day 21 I've been told I'm likely ovulating despite my periods varying from 26 days to 44 days. No confirmed diagnosis of PCOS but the Dr said I have pretty much every marker for it (excessive facial hair, irregular periods, oily skin) I feel like giving up now as I know I'm releasing an egg but why isn't it sticking?? I've been told to get my BMI to 30 before I can get further investigations. Currently my BMI 38 despite losing 8kg in the last few months. Thing is I hate the whole BMI thing as I'm short (5ft1) so it mean I have to be extremely light to have a BMI of 30. I got down to it before and I was ill looking and wearing kids clothes (ages 12-13) but Dr wants me to fit the numbers rather than look at me as a whole.