idk what to do anymore

well ever since the beginning of my pregnancy i just felt ugly uhm as soon as my clothes stopped fitting me and i started to get stretch marks everywhere i just feel hideous anyway everytime for a party i get really stressed out bc i can never feel comfortable with myself ! well i’m currently 35 weeks my belly isn’t too big but still uhm i got ready, i straighten my hair and did my makeup and i just felt UGLY well it got to figuring out what to wear and nothing fit and no i don’t buy maternity clothes bc it’s expensive and i don’t really like it ! and i’m almost through with it anyway but yeah i had a mental breakdown and told my boyfriend i didn’t want to go bc i just felt ugly well he just left me in the room and i understand y’all are gonna think that i’m exaggerated or such a bitch but i can’t help it i can’t help feeling this way and i just came in her to vent cause i don’t have friends or anyone to talk to