Annual Pap Smear 😁

Tomorrow I have my annual Pap smear...yay me 😑 even though this will be my 4th one, I'm still so anxious. My last one was extremely painful, it felt like I was being ripped apart. I'm not sure if she used a larger speculum or what, but it was awful & I was sore for a couple days after. The ones pervious to that were a piece of cake & just felt like pressure. So needless to say, I'm super nervous this time around. Does anyone have any tips on how to stay calm during the exam??