The weird stuff I do tell me I’m not alone, or am I?

So I’m 31, I’m not a young girl playing family with my boyfriend. Just wait, if that was offensive, listen to my story…

So my partner is 10 years older than I am, has 2 kids, both graduated high school, he has vasectomy, got a reversal 2 years ago. We have had no luck. I’ve been pregnant before, but it ended an unwanted abortion. Different story to tell.

So, I have these weird ass visions of me being pregnant with my man now. Like I’ll stick out my stomach as if I’m pregnant and “picture it being real” in my head.

So we had dinner, a few drinks, I can’t eat gluten or I get BLOATED, so I was playing around and holding my stomach, like someone pregnant would taking a photo, and I told him “okaaayyy babe let’s take our maternity photos” and laughed and he’s like okay stop. I told him whyyyy you know what it’s like to these photos (with his prior wife and 2 kids I assume he’s done a few photo shoots) and he’s like okay just knock it off you’re being weird now.

I probably am. I had a few drinks and literally wish and pray I will have the chance to carry a baby full term. So maybe that makes me weird doing the stuff that I do?

In the past we used to joke, I was very petite and have this baby pillow I’ve kept and it ended up in my shirt one morning we woke up and he was like omg you’d look so cute pregnant. Keep in mind this was like 4 years ago. Why do I remember that so clearly, his exact word were you would be so cute pregnant, you’d be like those girls who you can’t tell are pregnant from the back u til they turn to the side, you would just have a perfect cute belly.

Now I’m psycho and think about it 24/7.

Lord help me.

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