Break ul

I just broke up with my boyfriends of 6 years who gave me herpes like 3 years ago. I love him but he wasn’t changing. I deserve to get treated better. Especially after all i have been through with him. It took me a long time to realize that but it’s true. Anyways, it’s been about 3 weeks and we just gave each other’s stuff back. It was hard & really sad. now that i know i really ended it I’m so scared. Who is gonna love me or accept me for this ? I keep asking myself would I if i didn’t have it? Idk prob not. It’s a lot to ask of someone. I see so many people struggling on here when it comes to dating. I feel like it’s so much harder for women then men. I think that women are more forgiving towards men & their flaws then men are to women. I don’t want to be alone. I see myself getting married and having kids. I even wanted to have a natural birth but even that is taken from me. I’m just so scared. I hate this.