I’m starting to feel a bit resentful towards my partner. We only get to see each other on weekends and some weekends we don’t get to see each other because of their job. My partners in the military and I’ve been more than flexible and understanding about it between watch duty and detachment and constant schedule changes. I literally drive three hours round-trip just to spend the weekend with them so a total of six hours between Friday and Sunday.

This week was a little different because of Veterans Day they got a four-day weekend. Unfortunately I was not so lucky. I had to work both Thursday and Friday. I work from home so it’s not that big of a deal. Well nothing that upset me was that I worked until 9 PM and I got off work and literally 30 minutes after I was off work they went to sleep. When they started dozing on my god you’re going to sleep already? And they were like yeah I’m tired. You laid in bed all day you’re tired? You literally did nothing all day while I worked. So Friday rolls around I’m like finally yes my weekend I can’t wait and I get off work at nine like usual and I lay down next to them they spend an hour watching TikTok videos and don’t say shit to me and then they roll over and go to sleep so I’m like OK so gay to you just don’t really get any time off because I’m working all day and then go to sleep an hour after I get off work so WTF.

On Saturday they woke me up at 8 in the morning on my day off because they said it gives us extra time to spend together. Then proceeded to get angry with me because I wanted to sleep another two hours. Then 9 PM rolls around and they go to bed. So it was so important for us to get that extra time together yet they can go to sleep when they want. And then this morning rolls around and I woke them up at 9 AM 12 hours after they’ve gone to sleep and they got upset with me saying it’s not fair that they don’t get a chance to sleep in which they do get a chance obviously they saw 12 straight hours and I got five hours of sleep. I mentioned to them I was bummed how quickly the four days passed by and they said “well you should be grateful that we got extra days together.”I’m finding it hard to be grateful right now I should be grateful that my partner spent more time on their phone than actually mentally there with me? I should be grateful that every single night that my partner was with me they went to sleep early? I should be grateful that we didn’t get very much time to actually spend together alone. Bad enough we haven’t had sex in almost a month but now the lack of physical intimacy like cuddling is really starting to get to me.