Month 6 and still nothing

I know that many of you have been trying for much longer than I have but im at my wits end and I think I am being punished. When I was much younger I made some bad decisions and lived a pretty shady life which resulted in me having 5 abortions over the years. Now im 34 and left that life behind but now I can't conceive. Im petrified inmaybhave damaged myself forever or that im just being punished for being a bad person. Ps I can do without judgment in your replies. I know I made some bad choices so please if your gonna slam me for being a murderer I don't need your additions I live with my mistakes all my life.