Chemical

Unfortunately I've just had a chemical pregnancy. Is it weird I don't really know how to process this? Like I new it was going to happen because my HCG was dropping So I got upset plenty before I even knew. But now I feel okay. Maybe because I've processed it, but is this okay? Should I be upset? I don't know if this is as bad a miscarriage that's further along? I'm sorry if I'm rambling. I'm just wondering if I'm not taking this seriously. So when I get pregnant again would it be a rainbow baby? And are you more fertile after a chemical? Thanks, sorry for being so random :(