Depression vs sex drive

Why do I have to choose between my sex drive alsk achieving orgasm and managing my depression? I absolutely hate that my depression medication is like a orgasm blocker from hell. I haven't taken them in a while due to some craziness in life and not being able to get into the doctor. It clicked this morning on why I've been wanting more sex and sex has been so darn good. I orgasmed twice last night. I'm usually lucky if it even starts to feel good before it's over.

I don't want to give that up with my husband. I love the connection we've had lately with it but my depression and anxiety is hard to manage too. I have tried so many different meds and they all do the same. If they work for my depression meds they kill my sex life. I want to not de depressed and enjoy my husband too.