'm torn right now I am pregnant at the moment and the last thing I wanted was go through this alone I wanted this to work so bad... My husband is in Mex been trying to get him a green card for 2 years already because of covid nothing is moving much. I got pregnant and decided to come back to the US my baby to be born here... He didn't want me to come but I couldn't have my baby other there I come to the US for visits or for things I need to get done here... I can't leave my child over there my parents are here and it's already taking to long for him to get a green card I could just imagine how long it will take for my baby to get it... I made a post before he started drinking again around August after he stopped for 6 or 7 months.... He called his ex one weekend I was here when that happened.... I told him if he drunk again we were done and he drank again, I tried not talking to see if he would open his eyes but no... He's out here acting like nothing happened and it breaks me because I love him I did everything for left my home and everything for him.... As much as I don't want to I'm stating to hate him so much for doing this, after losing our first child and having another I can't believe he's acting like this and maybe it is my fault I use to be so angry at him and would hit him and that was super bad of me I know we did get help but when he drank again it went down the hill and now I'm left here broken I can't wait till I get it together life is giving me a second chance and I wish our marriage would of work out but right now I feel like even if he gets sober I won't want him back.... I'm done I just hate how he's out there not giving a f not even asking for my baby... Not even trying I just want idk I don't regret coming... But maybe if I would of never we would of been together but with his drinking it's just imposible for me to even be happy and I had issues as well maybe that's what he wanted maybe he stopped loving me and didn't know how to get rid of me.. I'm so hurt but I'm trying my best to stay up for my baby