Jus told my biggest secret

So I jus told this guy that I have herpes. And he doesn’t really care but I still do. Me and him are the only ones who know so like I’m excited because I didn’t think he would want me. I’ve told myself I’m only telling guys that I’m really into. I’m actually really happy but I still feel a type of way abt myself… I’m so depressed abt. Started cutting myself but I stopped, it was hard for me at first and I never told anyone abt it because it’s normal it’s life but it’s not okay and I wasn’t sleeping around someone jus never told me they had it and I found out after the worst breakout ever. But I’m happy he is okay with it but idk is it okay to say I still feel a type of way abt having sex?