Having a really hard time

I need to vent for a minute! And could really use some kind words from other mamas!

For the past 10 years I’ve put my body through so much!

I had anxiety in university and tried 4 different antidepressants over the course of 2 years and suffered through horrible side effects, but sucked it up because I was tired of my family complaining about my anxiety.

Then I met my husband and tried 3 different types of birth control over 6 months and suffered through horrible side effects with those too.

Then I went through a depression about 3 years ago and tried another 2 different antidepressants with even worse side effects because I didn’t want my husband to have to take care of me all the time.

After I had my daughter I tried another 3 different forms of birth control, and more terrible side effects.

Recently I just had a checkup with my doctor and she recommended Zoloft for my very mild anxiety and my seasonal affective disorder. I was hesitant because I really don’t feel like I need medication, but I know that my anxiety manifests as anger towards my husband and frustration towards my daughter, so I thought it might be good for them.

I’m a week in and feel absolutely awful side effects. I know it can take some time for it to work, but I don’t know if it’s even worth it to stick it out.

Over the past 10 years I’ve put so many hormones and medications into my body just to make other people happy or to try and fix or prevent something about myself.

I want to be less anxious and less angry, but not if it makes me feel like this!

I don’t want to give up, but I can barely function and take care of myself, let alone take care of my 14 month old too! 😔