I posted in this group when I was pregnant in 2019 about how I was disappointed with having a second son.

Many people told me I would get over it, that it’s just the hormones and I should be happy to have a healthy child because many people can’t even conceive one.

Well, I’m here to tell those people that no. I have NOT gotten over it this time. I’m still in mourning for the little girl I’ll never have and unfortunately the fact I want a girl and I’m stuck breastfeeding him still has caused a rift between us. (I never wanted to breastfeed but he refused a bottle. He still refuses a bottle or a cup of milk) I was diagnosed with Postpartum depression which is still raging away and not even medication is helping. I love him but I also hate him.

My spouse is desperate to conceive a girl as well, but I’ve reached the point where I’m touch adverse and I have zero will to try again as I’m absolutely positive it’ll be another boy. I told him if we tried and it was another boy I’d most likely have a meltdown and probably reject the baby and the baby doesn’t deserve that.