I’ve been with my partner for 6 years and we have 2 children together, and now I’ve just found out I’m pregnant again. The past year or so has just gotten worse in our relationship. It’s so one sided. Now I’d like to hear what other people have to say about this.

So he can go out whenever he likes Willy nilly (like ALL MEN DO) but I have to ask him if it’s okay if I can go out. Always ends up in an argument. I asked him tonight If it was okay if I can have a child free couple hours this weekend so I can go for a cuppa with his sister and have a girly catch up etc.. no one ever has my youngest son so he’s literally connected to my hip 24/7 so I never get a break. His face starts twitching and he turns the internet off on his phone because ‘his phones dying’ (I have no internet on my phone when I leave the house so had to jump off his phone) then says ‘but I need a break too’ he went out last weekend on Friday and Sunday and also the weekend before. He works but I also have to take care of his son who isn’t biologically mine and he can be really hard work behaviour wise. I can’t remember the last time I was child free🙃 we’ve barely spoken since because I think he’s got a cheek to say he needs a break when he barely has his kids. He has another child from a previous relationship that I see to mostly because on the days we have him he works so I have to get him up out of bed for school, get him sorted, take him to school and pick him up etc. I also had to change my sons school to put him and his other child first to help HIM out, yet his face twists when I ask for help with his own children.

Tonight I have fell asleep on the settee and his son isn’t allowed to share a room with my children due to his behaviour so my partner usually sleeps on the settee when he’s here. I was so tired that I fell asleep and he tried waking me up for me to go to bed. I asked him if I could sleep downstairs because I literally had no energy to get up I’m that tired and drained from getting 0 help off anyone. He ignored me and carried on watching the telly. I’ve dozed off again not realising and next minute you know I jump up with fright because he’s stood up so fast and slammed the door. I don’t understand what I’ve done wrong🥴

I’m honestly so depressed lately I struggle to even put a brush through my hair sometimes and because the house isn’t up to his standards I get called all sorts like ‘lazy cunt’, I’ve tried explaining to him that I’m not lazy and that I’m trying to make myself better but I can’t and the more he calls me names the worse I feel and lack more energy.. I struggle to wake up in the morning it’s that bad😪 how do you educate someone on depression? Not to mention I’ve also been diagnosed with anxiety, PTSD and BPD on top of that. I’m not making them as excuses but I’ve tried seeking therapy to help me battle with these but they’re useless and never help. I just feel like if he helped me more and understood more I wouldn’t be this bad😪

Before Christmas my aunty passed away and I asked him if he could take the kids home by himself as they had been dropped off at the wake by the childminder a little later on and instead of being understanding and taking them home, he left me with the children while I was intoxicated, and went home on his own. I had to ask a friend to help me take the kids home because I knew I couldn’t do it on my own because I had a few to drink (with having both adults in the home I didn’t think it would have been a problem to have a few drinks) he didn’t think this was a problem and that I should have been home when they were coming home, even though I hardly get to see much of my family.

I know I’ll never be good enough for him and I don’t know why or what I’ve done to deserve this😭 the relationship is the worse it’s ever been to the point he’s even shown another girl affection just before Christmas and he told me how sorry he was, I was the only one for him. And when he explained I didn’t show him enough affection I explained it’s because I can never be bothered as I’m struggling with myself mentally, he promised he would educate himself on depression, anxiety etc and help me more but I feel like that was all for show and just wanted to tell me what I want to hear to get back with me🥺

Can I have your opinions on this and any advice please?🥺🥺🥺