Wise words of encouragement

I’m so depressed. The father of my first child sent me a long nasty message after he left my moms from seeing me after a disagreement we had that started earlier this am. Being in this relationship has already been hell but I thought since I was carrying his first child he would have a different level of respect for me, ig not. To sum up the message he told me I was too masculine for him and that he needs a girly girl. He pictures himself with other women all the time and that if I went thru with this pregnancy he didn’t want ppl to know he was the father… proceeded to tell me to get an abortion bc he’s embarrassed & disgusted to be with someone like me. By someone like me he means someone who suffers from mental health issues. I just wanna say this isn’t the first time he’s said something of this nature to me. It’s the reason I don’t leave the house unless absolutely necessary. The reason I only leave the house with a nice wig, a full face of makeup in my best dressed. Ig that’s the reason he doesn’t look at me when we’re intimate huh? I’m trynna to laugh to keep from crying but I’m on the verge of cracking…

Wait I had to edit this post to say that I’m currently looking for another job but I stopped working bc my morning sickness was so bad that I was dependent on him but now I gotta get off my ass and do what I need to do. My car is parked at his parents house unable to be driven bc of a terrible crack in my windshield but since I’m not with him anymore it’s not able to get fixed Monday like planned now his dad is threatening to have it towed off his property. I dont have $300 to get the windshield fixed nor do I have and other couple of hundred to pay to get it off a tow lot which is like 50 bucks a day. Not to mention my account is heavily overdrawn! I can’t believe this is my life right now.