I'm so sad. And I'm trying so hard not to be. But how can I not be? May 21st, 2021 my first born baby's heart stopped beating when I was 8weeks5days pregnant. We found out we were losing the baby the day before on May 20th when we went into the appointment to get a blood draw to find out gender and any issues the baby might've had.... 7 months to the exact day of losing our baby and 2 days after the supposed to be due date (December 19,2021) on December 21st, 2021 my dad passed away. I was really close with my dad. And this really sucks. Everyone else around me is having babies with their husbands/boyfriends and they have all their family members and they're all happy.... and here I am.... it feels like I'm losing everything.... I just want it to be done and over with. I'm so exhausted.... I'm so exhausted from working like a mule every day and I'm emotionally exhausted. I don't get it... I don't understand why God is putting me in this place of loss and grief and mourning. I just want it all to end. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up again 💔💔💔😭😭 I'm just so sad and I'm trying so hard not to be. But how can I not be? 💔😭💔