Dramatic ?

I’m wondering if I’m being dramatic.

My first pregnancy was a a chemical. I found out Wednesday by Friday I was bleeding.

My second pregnancy was honestly such a breeze lol I had high blood pressure however the after math was horrific.

They didn’t get everything out and by the time I was home I was clotting so badly and had a fever of 104 they had me checked out two days later and when I say checked out I mean they looked at me and my downstairs with no pelvic exam and said since my fevers down and I’m not bleeding at the moment I was fine.

Two days later my aunt was showing me the best way to bathe my daughter and I laughed… a single laugh and I gushed so much blood. I went to the bathroom and made her come in and explained that I wasn’t peeing she rushed me to the hospital where my blood count was 5.4 and they were surprised I wasn’t in a coma. Anyway to sum it up I spent a month off and on in the hospital Andes up with sepsis and just almost died twice. My mind is playing tricks on me.

I was suppose to get my period yesterday and I didn’t so I tested and BAM pregnant lol so now every ache or cramp I’m afraid I’m gonna start bleeding and lose her or him. It’s hard to be excited when worried is all I feel. I’m exhausted just thinking about it.