1st appt.. I HATED HERE ‼️

I want to scream and just run out .. I’m at my 1st prenatal appointment after losing 2 kids I’m scared to get an ultrasound I’m scared of just everything … ‼️ I went to the hospital Sunday idk if it’s a S.C thing but they don’t let you look at the ultrasound in the hospital ‼️ They told me I had fluid then .. what if baby ain’t grew or there’s no heartbeat like last time I want to just leave ‼️ I’m fighting back tears and they starting to get the best of me ‼️