Jealous

It's annoying whenever a friend gets pregnant effortlessly. I've been TTC for 2 years and I just find out that my friend is pregnant only after a few months. I'm trying to be happy and I certainly did express happiness for her on the outside...but on the inside I'm sad. And mad. It's also especially infuriating when she tries to relate with my struggles saying "how hard it was being disappointed by my period every month." By "every month" she means 3, while I've been dealing with this for 24. She says "just keep trying!" And I say my definition of trying involves a miscarriage, a painful surgery, a long recovery, 3 ultrasounds a week, blood work every other day, hormone injections, estrogen pills, progesterone supplements, ovulation sticks, basal body temps...this is my reality. If only she really understood how much effort it takes to "keep trying." I can't help but hate her in this moment.