Missing pregnancy

Anyone else? My son was born 1/6 … everyday I have at least one episode where I cry and miss my belly. I miss the kicks, appointments, anticipation etc. I folded maternity clothes from the laundry and sobbed. I showered and felt my empty belly snd sobbed. I want to relive it all over again. So sad those special moments in the hospital are over. We’re having trouble adjusting at home with my 4 year old so maybe that’s why? Trust me I’m ecstatic he’s here but missing those times oh so much.