hi girls

i’m the person who grew up too fast. i had to take care of my siblings, cook, clean go to school and work all throughout high school. once i was out of high school and my childhood home, i’ve always kept the same mentality. i pay my bills and i work for what i need. i have a really hard time accepting. whether it’s a feeling like love or gifts. i don’t really know how to make decisions for myself or when it comes to my well-being. i never had time or money to buy clothes or go out to eat or spoil myself. even though i’ve worked my whole life, money has gone to rent and bills.

i now have a bf. he is so loving and supportive of me. he motivates me, cherishes me and always is trying to spoil me. the first year of our relationship he would ask what i want to do or what i want to eat or if i need anything and i’d always ask him to make the decision. mainly because it’s his money but also because i never had someone do that for me, so i feel guilty. it’s not a feeling of “i don’t deserve it” more of a feeling like, your money can go elsewhere. please use it towards something else, i’m okay.

this past year (our second year together) i’ve tried my hardest to understand. he obviously knows how i’ve been brought up but he’s never experienced it. he comes from a wealthy family who has always provided for him, now he wants to start providing for me. I love that, I love him. It’s so hard for me to accept it though, even when he says i deserve it. I’m so thankful for him.

has anyone gone through this experience?

what ways have you help accept love and gifts from people who just want the best for you?

how have you balanced with it?

thank you