Miscarriage grief

I had a missed miscarriage on new year eve and I’m still devastated 😔 I have 3 children already and all I keep thinking is why? And how did this happen especially since I have 3 kids already. I know no one knows why. But ugh, everything is killing me. People announcing they are due in august (when I was due) is hurting so much.

How long did it take for you to conceive and have a healthy pregnancy?

I’m soooo scared to get pregnant and lose the baby again. 💔💔