…Insecurities…

so my boyfriend and I are long distance and we are both in college. I am currently living at home with my parents doing online school getting my degree and my boyfriend is going to a university and living in an apartment with other roommates. so compared to me, he’s living the “normal: traditional college life.”

lately he’s been going to a lot of parties and he invited me to come down and party with him but I had a lot of homework and had to stay behind. but it just bothers me how he’s been talking to me how he’s been having a lot of fun at parties and been talking to a lot of people. I know I’m probably just insecure but I also don’t trust him entirely because he slept with his best friend. meaning they just slept in the same bed together nothing sexual but that made me uncomfortable. I forgave him and we’re over it now but I can’t help but feel jealous when he tells me he talks to other girls at parties. and he also has a very flirty personality as well and he’s very attractive so girls are always hitting on him.

I just don’t know how to talk to him about this. because it kind of seems like it’s not a big deal I’m just insecure on my end. and I am truly happy for him and I want him to have fun in college and not miss out because right now I feel like I’m missing out on all that and maybe that’s why I feel bit jealous too because I’m online and I stay at home.

I just don’t know if I should bring it up to him or maybe just get used to it? Because it’s not like he didn’t invite me to any other parties he invited me to come up and see him and party with him.

another thing is I’m just worried about all the other girls at that party :(and I know that seems childish but he broke my trust when he slept with his best friend and I’m still trying to get over that. So when it comes to other girls I’m just really protective because of what happened.