No one has ever seen this picture.

This is the last picture I have of my baby still inside me. I had just found out my baby didn’t have a heartbeat, but my body stayed pregnant. This was me just waiting for it to start the miscarriage process, which ended somewhere around 1AM that night.

It feels like every year this pain becomes more unbearable. And this year is extremely painful, because all I want is to give my daughter a sibling, but my husband and I have had a journey with infertility.

I am in agony. It is so hard to survive this. I just want my baby in my arms. When will it be my turn?

I miss her every day, but today and tomorrow are always the hardest.

I love you Athena Jeanine. You are so perfect. 💕