Help!!!

Sex hasn't really been my thing cus I'd always had the notion that it hurts so much( for my first sex experience, I was forced) So each time I have it, it hurts. I've been married for a year now and we have a 1yr old daughter.

My husband and I have sex like once in 2-3months. I feel so bad cus he likes sex but I don't and each time he wants it I have to make excuses not to have it.

Am bothered alot and really wish I could change from that but it's hard( am cool w kisses and romance).