Pregnancy Blues

Is anyone else feeling super sensitive these days? When I’m happy I feel extremely happy (like my pre-pregnancy self) like really silly and comical but when I’m down, I feel like it cannot get any worse. I get extremely worried about my baby feeling my sadness. I think about my mother a lot. (She passed when I was pregnant with my first son) Considering I don’t have any family and I’ve been tackling this pregnancy pretty much alone. Then to add to it on February 7th I was suspended from work because someone in management said something racist toward me (I’m mixed Puerto Rican/black) and I had a negative moment being as though I’ve dealt with issues like that a lot of my life, I snapped… they suspended me for 2 weeks with no pay and concluded that I was not welcomed back to work. So now I’m 4 weeks no job and 30 weeks pregnant… I doy little things on the side to make my ends meet for the most part. But I can’t beat the feeling of just pure sadness. I feel like everything is just falling apart at the wrong time. I cry a lot. I’m so afraid to have postpartum and I don’t want my sadness to reflect on to my son. Keep me in your prayers 🙏🏽