Antidepressants

I took Paxil in high school for my anxiety/insomnia. But omg it was awful. I was not myself at all. I stopped taking it after 12 months but it was 18 months later that I felt normal. After those 18 months it felt like I had blacked out that whole time. Like I was waiting myself in a movie. I made soooo many decisions I wouldn't have made if I wasn't on the meds.

My I'm 32 and a mom of a toddler but I feel like my anxiety is at an all time high and I've not been sleeping.

I'm still kinda hesitant to ask my doctor about medicine since I had a bad experience with it but it's been 15 years and I know Paxil was discontinued due to the extreme side effects. So, I guess I'm wondering...

What antidepressants have you all taken within the last 5 years? How long? How did they make you feel?

Any insight will help me, thanks!