No prenatal care..

Venting & need advice

Long story short I had two appointments in the very beginning of my pregnancy before heading out of state (I told them so many times I would be leaving for a few months and could get prenatal out of state and pay outta pocket which I did) well two weeks before my return they called me saying they are dropping me as a patient didn't give me a reason and I was about 20 weeks.

Well to my mistake and really busy schedule I didn't try to get another obgyn until about 24/25 weeks and then I was informed by every single ob I called that pass 24 weeks they will no longer take me as a patient.

Well I'm now 27 weeks and I started trying again because I'm terrified of CPS getting called on me at birth for "no prenatal care" (I have gone to clinics but they aren't technically prenatal) I was informed that I can infact get prenatal care after 24 weeks with a referral from my first obgyn. But then I found out that every single obgyn in my area that will take me with a referral within like 50 miles doesn't take my insurance.. finally I found ONE provider that is willing to take me on as a patient with a referral and take my insurance. So I had to sign a waiver with my first obgyn to release my medical information (and send a referral) DOESNT EVEN HAVE RECORD OF ME ANYMORE.

I'm so lost on what to do now.. I know this is all my fault and I'm so stressed and scared.. I have two kids already so this isn't my first rodeo but I feel like I'm failing as a mom to this baby ..I'm terrified of something happening to her and it be my fault for not getting prenatal care.. I'm scared cps will show up at whatever hospital I just drive too and deliver at if it comes down to it... I don't want to be mistreated either during delivery because of all of this...

Has anyone gone through this.. has anyone just showed up to a hospital with a labor and delivery and didn't have any trouble.. can you even do that?

I'm still actively trying to find one.. I have a lot of phone calls to make tomorrow and hopefully the obgyn that said they will take me will understand and just take me anyways...