So Full Of Joy!!

Mommy (me) just just squished a moved out of both her babies! (27+4 w)

I cannot thank Jesus enough!!! I am so happy! In a time where anxiety and depression keep trying to overtake my mind after being mentally and emotionally abused, when at ちょどう 22 weeks with my twins, it became physical. I've suffered from skin injuries that are now scars, bone displacements that I haven't been able to see my chiropractor for, swelling in my; hips, wrists, face, shoulders and chest, and suffering from vaginal bleeding from not properly defending myself or my babies.

I've been on the road for 2 weeks total after I was attacked. It's been hard because I was absolutely not ready for the first couple of drives. The first time I got on the road, I was driving from Arizona to Missouri after a 3-day stay in a Super 8 motel where I wouldn't even turn the lights off to sleep because the unmedically diagnosed PTSD was getting so bad.

After getting a police escort from my home after being sent to jail, being 24 weeks was definitely starting to take a toll on my body, especially after being thrown around a hallway by someone who is consistently in the gym but I still need to drive. I went back to Arizona for my court date at which point I was exhausted from being on the road for so many hours and the pillow I needed to sit on was starting to get uncomfortable. It got rescheduled because on top of everything else, I got sick so they wouldn't let me inside the courthouse.

But, I bled. Twice. I had to buy pads. The first time was 3 days after I got my hair ripped out.

It was panty liners at first because I didn't think it was goin to be bad but I suppose my judgment was already off these days.

I've been scared for them.

Having this pregnancy, being my first one, has been quite the experience so far. But, being able to irritate them and make them move for me feels like a huge milestone that I've hit and it makes everything so much more real for me.