Seriously broken 😢💔

Hey ladies so I desperately need some advice here as i should not be up at 5:42 am posting this. Me and my boyfriend been together since september 1st. Everything is going well except our sex life, basically when we first got together it was more like he couldnt keep his hands off of me. We’d do it either every night or every other night because i am a busy mom and prefer night time when kids are asleep. I deeply love this man hes so good to me and my kids , we have a great relationship but i seem to be having some sexual issues here with him. I completely understand that relationships arent only about sex , but sex is important. I enjoy oral sex with him giving

It and receiving, him not so mucchh, the issue here is it all started with him literally going down on me once and was for like 10 mins, im assuming hes done it in his past being that hes experienced i wouldnt say the best but good enough. He literally did it one time and i had just showered and i however would never allow that if

I didnt shower. We fucked afterwards and everything was good but that was id say about 4 months ago. Then as the months went by we started having less sex and i didnt pressure him much but i would throw little sexual comments at him just to see if it spiced things up and it doesnt. So with that being said i had a talk with him about how i felt and told him i dont want to pressure him but when im in the mood for sex u dont do anything about it and i had mentioned to buy some

Sex toys and he was like “yeah aiite”. So i took it as he was against it. Then i opened up to him and confronted him on why he doesn’t give me oral sex and our communication level is great we dont yell or fight and he just basically told me he just doesn’t do it. 🤷🏻‍♀️ so im just like okay well i still wana satisfy him so the few times we do it i give him oral sex because it turns me on to see how turned on he is from it. As time goes by i stopped. Only because i feel like if we do love eachother we should satisfy eachother the best way we can and not only hes not giving me

Oral but now its harder to get the D. I mentioned it to him 2 days ago im like babe a week went by and we havent had sex lol u no made a joke out of it and he was like well it hasnt been a week and i showed him my calendar and said look babe lol i log everything. I didnt fight or argue just

Made a joke out of it. With that being said he came on to me after an hour and we had sex 🙄. I just feel broken and torn because I seriously love him and want to make it work. I dont cheat or lie to him i do everything and anything for this man. I just dont wanna have to feel like i have to bring it up to him just to have sex. I want

To feel special too and loved i want him to actually come on to me for once to my suprise! I dont nag i dont ask for shit i communicate with him on an adult level about shit and we seem

To always be on the same

Page 🤦🏻‍♀️ what else am i doing wrong here? Im seriously tired of using a shower head pressure just to get a clitoris orgasm when i shower !!! Im happy with him because hes a good man but im sad because i want us both to be the way we were in the beginning. Tonight i made a comment saying “oh babe let me suck your **** “

And he was like uh uhh meaning NO! Then says oh i didnt shower 🙄 i really dont know any man who would turn that down maybe im wrong here but I desperately need advice here. If i am doing something wrong ladies id appreciate u tell me . Please no hard negative words. Im already down and on the couch crying because i really wanna make things better with him.