How I’m feeling about my soon to be baby boy.

So today I found out I’m having a boy. To be honest with you my heart was really set on having a girl. I helped raised my nieces (who are now 11&6) and they were no problem, to me it seemed like raising a girl was not so hard. But now, I live with my husband who has 2 biological sons(16&11yrs old) and 2 step sons (22&17yrs old) the 16 yrs old lives with us and the 11 yrs old lives with his mother. The 22 yrs old is in the military and the 17 yrs old lives with his mother.

I have gotten to know them very well and we all seem to get along well. They all have thick skin from there dad (my husband/the step boys see him as there dad) and by thick skin I mean they all like to cuss each other out and they all seam fine with it, the 22 yrs old has an army mouth, the 17 yrs old thinks because he isn’t smart that he wants to be a thug and get into trouble with the law multiple times. The 16 yrs old seems to have his head screwed on just right and has good grades in school, never gets in trouble, does his chores but he is always in his room playing his little online games and has outrageous boy funk going on. And finally the 11 yrs old is following in the 17 yrs old shadow and thinks the stuff he does is cool.

OH and the best part is there mother is constantly at work and never watching over them! And when ever she is home she is smoking pot likes a damn chimney!! She lets the 17 yrs old smoke cigarettes and hopes that he learns that one day his lungs will kill him. The 11 yrs old is luck to be alive with his track record of bicycling in the street and dam near getting hit by cars and thinking it’s funny!!! The 22 yrs old has his own little family going on so I’m not worried about him. The 16 yrs old apparently can’t smell himself when ever he starts to stink under the arms and has oily hair and wonders why he has dandruff!

I’m worried that my soon to be son will fall into an of there foot steps. I’m horrified that my child will cuss like a sailer, run into the street, or want to be a wannabe thug or something! I have never raised a boy! I have never lived with small boys!

I have never in my life feel extremely scared, nervous, emotional.

Is there any moms out there who have boys who can give me some uplifting words, or advice. Please. I’m scared.