Tubal ligation after feelings

Hey mommas, so after having 2 beautiful baby girls (c-sections) I decided to have a tubal ligation. It was sad since when I had my last c-section I had signed it but last minute said no. I was in hopes of having one more. (Possible the boy) but the recovery for cesarians are hard and this one was harder. Since it had been my third surgery. My first girl has asthma and had been hospitalized with pneumonia since she was 1 on and off. She’s 5 now and finally seem to have grown out of it a little. My baby is only 9 months and at 3 weeks old she got hospitalized since she was sick with rhinovirus and bronchitis. They told me she most likely would develop asthma. The pediatrician at the time that sent me over to the emergency told me she wasn’t going to make it. This broke me in so many ways. My grandma had just passed and didn’t get to meet my little one. My little one that looked like her. Anyways I always had dreamt of a big family. We wanted a boy also. But I know that this was the right thing to do for both my girls and us. Anyone else had to do anything similar??