Always Nervous around Delivery time !!

I’m 38 weeks tomorrow and live 1hr 30 mins from hospital. Trying to look for signs of labor but there is always a fear that I will be too late getting to the hospital. With my last son I was 5cm dilated in a business meeting and didn’t even know I was in active labor nor were my pains noticeable. For some reason my water bag never pops early and I had last 2 sons at 38+1 and 38+4. Basically venting because I’m super nervous. Sorry ladies.