I don’t know what to do..

Not really sure where to post this..

I have no idea what to do. I found out that I was pregnant about 3-4 weeks ago and I already have 2 kids that literally this month just turned 2 and 1. Both were csections and the second csection I had postpartum hypertension and postpartum hemorrhage. My first csection they lost my sons heart rate and then it also dropped down to the 40s-50s twice.

We both want another baby but we wanted to wait until the kids were at least in school and we were in a bigger house. Originally we weren’t going to keep the baby.. which already really upset me because I am totally against abortion for myself. I always said I’d never get one… but now im in a situation where I don’t think having this baby is a good idea. We ended up deciding to keep the baby but the whole time I keep thinking maybe I shouldn’t.. I feel so guilty.. im crying all the time almost every night. I can’t sleep until 6am-7am. I just don’t know what to do..

I guess this is just a little rant.. im just struggling so hard right now