abusive relationship and Pfa

Hi im jesse. i was in a physically and mentally abusive relationship for almost two years. i left it earlier this week. i went to police and filed a Pfa against him becuase he has given me a black eye, also has crashed my car on purpose with me in it, emotionally abused me compared me to other women etc. asking me why i dont look a certain way or why im not as skinny as her etc... hes talked tonwomen behind my back as well. hes punched a mirror and shattered it infront of me, also ripped necklaces off my neck and earrings out of my ears. i am still healing but i feel very weak today like i miss him and i dont want to feel that way. i dont know how i could miss someone who did these things to me. thank u for letting me tell my story in this group ❤