I took a test. :/

I went against my own word and took a test this morning. Cycle day 30 , 6 days until predicted af, somewhere around an estimated 13 dpo, and BFN. I know im not out until af, but it pisses me off so bad all these women that get positives so early. I can't help but feel defeated. The only thing I wanted for Christmas was to tell my husband we did it. I absolutely hate that we have to go through this. I guess I'll test again in a couple days and hope things change.