I bleach my skin

I'm a peanut butter complected American Indian woman and I hate my uneven skin and the dark areas of my body, such as my knees and elbows. My legs, the backs of my arms and dark circles are freakishly darker than the rest of my body by about 5 shades. 6 months ago, I started using kojic acid/glutathione soaps with lemon juice and bleaching creams with hydroquinone all in one instance. I know this probably isn't safe but I just want a beautiful even skin tone, I don't wish to be white and proud of my heritage! But seriously, help me!