breakup

hello, just looking for advice or maybe just some comforting words.

me and my ex were together from the age of 15 to 20, we’re both 21 now and have been split up since early october. it was quite a mutual / amicable breakup. he was in a bad place, had problems with addiction etc., and decided to split up so that we could both focus on ourselves and heal. we’ve stayed friends throughout it but kept a distance from each other, i.e, only seeing each other once a month / hanging out with mutual friends. recently though it’s felt more than that. like we’ve spoken about how we still love each other, we’ve spent more time together / slept with each other a few times, and he’s been treating me very similarly to how he did when we were together.

but we spoke about it today, and i guess maybe ive let myself believe we’d get back together because i thought we both wanted that. but today, he said he doesn’t know where his life is going, and that he’ll “always have a place for me in his life but he doesn’t know where that place is”, and can’t give me any “honest answers”.

i guess maybe ive just taken those words to heart and have assumed the worst, thinking it means he doesn’t know if he would even want me back, when maybe he just means that he doesn’t know the logistics of us getting back together when we’re both figuring our lives out and might go in different directions? i’m not quite sure what he’s getting it, but it makes me feel as if i’ve been a bit naive.

what do you think? and how do i get over this? i feel so lonely at the moment. my life is changing as i’m finishing uni, i’m moving away from my support network and everyone is going different places. i’m really feeling his absence right now.