Confused about TWO men.

Hello I really need some advice because I am confused. I have been with my boyfriend for a year and 7 months and I love him but we have done long distance for the over a year. We are super close and have our whole lives planned out. Before you judge me and say I’m a bad person or I don’t deserve him I know I’m horrible for what I did. I cheated on him a month ago and I told him about it. But I got attached to the other guy and we connected on a whole nother level. I tried letting him go but we ended up talking again and I can’t seem to let either one go. I know if I stay with my boyfriend everything will work out he is willing to forgive me and we have been pretty normal but I am not normal me. The other guy wants to be in a relationship with me as well he has just never been in a serious long term relationship. I don’t know what to do anymore please help me out